Hello.

Hello everyone! :)

I feel I need to say something. ( ...omit the grammar. Work in process.)

I am in the process of finding myself, again. I have to refrain from doing things that have proven destructive, abusive, and just dealing with issues that set myself up for disappointment.

I KNOW I created my own drama. I will admit to that. I was hurt very bad, and in return I had to deal with many obstacles ALL at once, in EVERY aspect of my life. I have been the product of sabotage, hate, confusing love, and lack of compassion. This isn't always the case- there IS more love than hate. Just knowing I have lost so much in what I thought, was my passion, is enough for me to STOP!

I will always love fashion, and will always be on top of it, on my own. I don't need to attend events to bring me happiness, or lead me to my happiness, unless I am working.

I need concentrate on what really matters, and that is my well being, and my family.
I neglected what was REALLY important, and that is my family. As it continues to grow, I have been absent due to the destruction of my soul and self confidence.

I know I am now seeing the light, and am confident to say that I am improving, as a person who loves to laugh, sing or just be present with who I am. I'm not an evil person. I never knew how much anger I harboured until my experiences with this blog.

I am so done. I am happier than I was yesterday and I am so grateful.

This doesn't mean I'm going to end this blog because it IS MY BABY. No body's going to make me feel like it should end. That part of me is dealt with.

You have all been influential in my success'.
I am forever grateful, but I am not posting events anymore, because I simply CAN NOT harbour guilt, because I simply can't go.

I have a new focus that is nurturing, and fulfilling. THAT is what I need. I need to know, for myself, that I have accomplished something credible. Something that makes me smile- not mad, or sad.

Music has given me a new found respect for life. I never knew I remembered so much! ALL the songs I post have deep meaning for me. It's more than what you see. It's my way of expressing myself.

I have noticed that my blog chronicles my life in fashion. My times of passion, feeling 'fearless', pain, anger, destruction, an incredible amount of loss, and love, once again.

I will only post music and anything that makes ME happy. After all I am an ARIES :). I need to be grounded again and I feel it coming.

Thank you to those who understood me.

Vernard of Luvngrace...YOU are the one person who REALLY understood. I see it clearly. Thank you so much. That means a lot to me. <3

Tommy, your warm demeanour and calm prescence keeps me in check.

Viv, Marilyn and all designers who remained clear...thank you. I don't know if it was intentional, but I read it as empathy. I am so grateful.

To all the people who have been kind enough to trust me with posting your events on my blog. Thank you for adding 'colour', to my blog and for the invites. I only wish I was able to contribute financially. I am so sorry. I only hope my posts have assisted in some way or another.

So now, I am going to alleviate the anxiety and concentrate on love, only love.

One step at a time.

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